Thursday, April 30, 2009
8:47 PM

HI I'm here to update my blog since I haven't been doing so for a little whilezxxz.

ANYWAY.

MATH PPA 2 TODAY OMGZX D:

I totally failed it. AGAIN. Math can just go and screw itself. I gotta work really hard and pull my socks up! BUT, at least many others didn't seem to be able to ace it this time, which is some sort of consolation in a way? CRAP.

After the paper, I went down for recess with Mag and then we went for the Physics PT briefing and we were late. HOMG. Kind of got scolded. Ah wellz.

There're SO MANY PTs at hand right now.. and they're gonna be due soon. Lala. I dislike PTs to their very core. Always end up rushing them last minute. I ought to change, this time round. SUCKS to hw and stuffz.

Exams are the most horrible things in life unless u score, then they're really awesome. :D

(WHY AM I BS-ING SO MUCH TODAY?)

After the physics briefing we went back to class and did our English Expository Essay Formative.

I was trying very hard to keep myself awake throughout the one hour's worth of exam. I constantly felt my brain stop functioning and a lack of ventilation..

Many others felt that way too.

After school we went to Subway for lunch.

We had a damn long retarded session and laughed so much. I think I was causing public disruption.

Thank god I wasn't giving any weird stares.

Walked around Far East a bit then went home.

HAHAHA Edith gave me a quiz today; one about a door, cottage, waterfall, horse, blah blah. HAHA. Each item is supposed to represent how open your heart is, how many close friends you have, how contented you are with life and how big your ego is.. I don't think it's rather accurate tho..

FOUND OUT OVER MSN THAT SHU-HUI IS GOING TO THE STATES. (I'm random, yeah yeah.) And I was damn shocked when I heard that. She quit school already :O

Mmm anyway I'm going to end this post here.

I've yet to do my SS FA shockaz.

♥ her royal juiciness.-

Friday, April 24, 2009
5:24 PM

HKHKHKHKHKHappyBOWL AHHAHA :)

After school today, I went to far east with the mugger and we ate at full house; had a hong kong happy bowl each. And then I bought Gelare's bananawalnut ice-cream cuz I was longing for B&J's during math clinic but since there wasn't tht option I settled for less and made do with Gelare, which was not bad either.. (:

School was so-so today. Wasn't one of the high days.. This week has been a turmultuous one for me. Every day, I've been coming to school feeling not in top-form, not exactly coherent, unable to express myself properly. Something no one knows. I feel like the wires in my head have exploded and fizzled out. I probably just need sleep, a huge dose of music and maybe some books/shows.

We are piled with worksheets of all forms, shapes and sizes (fine, they're pretty much one size) to the ultimate MAX. Everybody's feeling the stress. Fine, not like I do a lot of hw but I heh, I feel like complaining. AHAHAH
Still, I am awfully stressed.

Math GA is next week. SS is the week after that. :O
Enough said......

Today I was talking with Jolynn; we were both complaining about how our lives seem so meaningless nowadays.
"Sec 2 I was happy 90% of the time. Sec 3"
"Happy sad happy sad happy sad."

It is so true. I don't know why things can't be the same as last year. I still don't understand. I will have to wait; ever so patiently.

Today, assembly was slightly different from the norm.
There was first the Insult competition, which was rather uh, amusing? I can't remember how it was like. Anyway I liked the first one! Heehee. Some of them I didn't get.
Then we had the teachers' concert, which was pretty long.
It was quite funny! Haha :)

Uh anywayyyyzzzzzzz life is boring. I hope it picks up soon (plzplzplz)

♥ her royal juiciness.-

Wednesday, April 22, 2009
6:13 PM

RGAK's SYF 2009

Hey, shall post a short one today.
Because I've got loads of hw to do.
Which I'm completely in no mood to do now. At all, totally.
The list of boring stuff I've to do:
-Study for Bio SPA on Friday
-Overdue Chinese summary (which I absolutely hate. Eww...)

-Learning Lab hw (damn freaking a LOT. It kind of accumulated over the weeks)
-History FA (I've got to read like 90 pgs worth of notes before I'll be able to do it.)

SUCKY right? It's SOOOO absolutely understandable why I am dreading every single one of them. It isn't even fun hw like easy math assignments. Oh wait now that reminds me to add Math Assignment 1 to the list. GREAT..

Anyway, today was Angklung's SYF. We were all completely psyched about it. And we did really well. Everyone moved to the music, flashed the whitest possible smiles we could and got ourselves into the mood. It was a truly enjoyable 10 minutes, performing under the giant lights amongst the audience. And I had fun playing, especially th second song.

Everybody had said that we performed well, it was asthetically pleasing, and they could see we gave our very best. We were rather confident we might just have clinched that Gold With
Honours... Madam Nisa (sp?) and some of our angklunger's relatives said we did well!

But then the judges are so totally warped in their judgement. They don't know how to judge how well a school has the ability to perform, rather, they go for looks of resplendance and awe. The bigger, the better. They like.
Therefore we did not get gwh, instead we ended up with a Gold, which is not too bad, since only 1 school got gwh and only three, including us, got Gold. We were rather disappointed nevertheless.

So, now for the sequence of events.

After our performance, we proceeded to the waiting area outside the theatre to eat chicken rice with fried chicken. Which was soggy by then. It wasn't very good, but still edible. I was very hungry so I wolfed everything down and still felt hungry after that. Borrowed money from a sec 1 to buy Iced Lemon Tea. Felt so poor la. Cuz we didn't bring our wallets. So it was like we were down to our last handful of coins and we could only afford the cheapest drink available haha

Then we hurried to finish our drink because it was time to go in to watch the other schools perform. Jolynn and I commented on the other schools' performaces as if we were professionals. Haha. Then after about 4 schools we had to leave.

In the morning, my alarm clock beeped at 5.15am, the time I'd set it to last night, but I turned it off and went back to sleep -- for an hour or so. So I was kind of rushing everything in the morning.. my make-up and all.

We reported to the needlework room where everyone was busy putting their make-up on and stuff. Was quite high for a while. Haha. Walked around the school a little bit. People were staring at us. Mrs Abbas said my eyemake-up wasss nice! :D

Back to school, we did retarded stuff at the back of the bus like sing childish songs like Barbie/ Barney and ask 'intellectual' questions.

Where do you find the Berlin Wall?
...Berlin? I know, America!
No, Germany (you doofus!)

And the occasional, "gosh they are so bimb!"

Haha no lor. And we asked lots of questions we didn't know the answers to like how many species of whales are there and how long is Rapunzel's hair (5km) and how old Queen Elizabeth is.

That was pretty fun/ny.
And then we went back to school, everyone changed, I didn't because I'd forgotten to bring my school badge/ nametag/ hairties and clips in my frantic rush in the morning. Eventually I decided to go all the way home (under the sun in my costume), get the required knick-knacks and then go back to school. By the time I got back everyone was leaving the needlework room because other people needed to use it for other purposes. So I quickly got changed and off we went.

Went to Manhatten to eat. It's becoming sort of like our batch lunch place. Shared a plate of Seafood pasta with Jolynn because we weren't very hungy. The pasta sucked, the fish was delicious and the prawns not really that great. And we all placed our phones in one row in the middle of the table, waiting for the results to come in by SMS at 3 pm. We even changed the setting to the loudest possible, song ringtones. And we got so paranoid every time one of us received an sms - but not from the ak-ers. Haha. That happened sooo many times! Haha. In the end, nobody smsed us. (rawwwwwwwwwrr.) Instead, Averill got a call from Shi Ting who told her our results: Gold. And then she handed me the phone when I was told that only one school - Siglap Secondary got GWH. IT WAS DAMN DISSAPOINTING!! We were left shaken, disappointed, and empty. It was truly upsetting.

We were chanting, "Gold with Honours!" all the way from the bus stop to Plaza Sing! And we were talking about how we deserved Gold with double Honours and how they'd specially make a new award to fit our deserving playing and how we'd stick masking tape saying, "I got GWH and I'm from RGAK" on our pinafores tomorrow and go about walking in school. And that we'd make our batch hoodie shiny, shimmering gold and emboss our marvellous achievement above. We also screamed at the top of our lungs, "RGS Angklung Gold with Honours" as we were walking out of the school gate, which attracted a few stares. Now it was all gone.

No matter how good 'Only one school got GWH and only three got Gold' sounds, it still wasn't enough. Because we'd settle for honours and nothing less; anything less is disappointing. And as for the school who got GWH, no comments shall be made here.
LOL!

Newayez. I've gotta bathe and get ready to go for tuition now so I shall continue this post later! My parents are returning home from Hong Kong tonight! (:

/edit

Hey I'm back! My parents are back from Hong Kong! Had Learning Lab then they all came to pick me up. Haha how honoured. I'm kiddin'. They bought clothes for us, and it's always so exciting to see the goodies! Hahaha. I like Hong Kong and it's atmostphere! Okay, maybe not. I'm feeling dizzy and tired now thus explaining the incoherence and inability to think and express my ideas clearly. Whateverzxzxz..

I love my new clothes they'd brought back, but they were rather expensive! Especially the dress.. which was pricey. Oh well. Shall do a quick sum up of SYF. (This post wasn't as short as I had intended!)

Basically, we complained a lot, went back to school, and went home. Haha. Done. Okay. I'm very tired now you see. And I still haven't completed any of the above hw. Which sucks. I'm gonna get into trouble with the teachers tmr. But I'm too tired to care at this moment..

Pictures will be up on fb/ next post soon! :D Hahahak I shall go see if there are any up to kope now. Byeeee! :)

♥ her royal juiciness.-

Saturday, April 18, 2009
7:39 PM

Couldn't get a better deal than this.

Friday

It was school as usual, math clinic which I was dying to get out of (I was simply stoning and praying for the lesson to quickly be over with). Aunt came to pick me up, I waited half a freaking hour (not complaining) and then we drove to Taka where I had a chicken chop (pork chop on usual occasions) toasted sandwich and after that we proceeded to check out the 70% off majorly good deals. I bought these plates which looked a hundred times more expensive than they were. Lalala awesome finds I'm happy happy happy (((-:

Today was

ORA..!

Yay. exciting. not really.

Best of all, I've got two new shirts from the fest, which spells awesomeness.

Haha other than that, I was bored stiff for most of the time.

The walk-a-jog was uhm, a new experience. We just walked around the school and perspired.

I spent so much money today.. about $30 probably?

Cuz I was supporting everybody who asked me to buy their stuff.. Photog, OSL, Angklung, PSB, etc. I bought honey bubble tea, yogurt, 1 and a half madalines, a brownie, jelly joy, pizza, postcards, peanut butter cereal clusters and a dark green raffles shirt with gold print.

Haha. We went to J8 for Mos Burger at around 12, because we couldn't bear the stuffiness and boredom for any longer. But other than that, RJ/ RI(JC) is really cool and fun! Haha! Can't wait to go to JC ahahha;)

After lunch, we'd to go back to school for prac. Super sian. I was entirely blown out from the morning's events. There weren't many stalls and it took us no less than 10 minutes to walk around them all. So we were totally bored. Besides, the place was so jam-packed that I was suffering a lack of oxygen, suxorrsss.

SYF in four days time!!! AHH. GO RGAK. One last hurdle.

♥ her royal juiciness.-

Saturday, April 11, 2009
8:58 PM

Hello!

Happier updates ahah :D

Went to far east after tuition just now and got my contacts. FINALLY! YAY :D They're due for collection on Tuesday. I was basically at said FEP because 1) my mom wanted to alter her pants 2) there was an optician's there also so it made things convenient 3) I wanted to shop but didn't really have a lot of time to browse and I didn't see anything which was amazingly nice so I returned home with just a small pouch. Haha.

WHEEE so I'm excited for moi contacts ahaha.

Anyway, yesterday I went out with Aerin, mah lovely cuzzie and caught Shopaholic (FINALLY.)
It was really good! Funny, interesting, seemed hell longer than it actually was but that was all right since it was kept interesting and I wasn't longing to get out of the cinema or anth.. :))

We met around lunch time after our breakfast with our own families. Dimsum at East Ocean for brunch... ...
I ate the biggest chicken wing I'd ever seen in my life

this is quite nice

Went to the ship to look for them. Sat down and joined them for half their breakfast. The chocolate pudding was nice haha!

We went to cine where Aerin and I bought 3-for-2-dollar glitter tattoos from More Than Words.
Mine

Then we went to take neoprints at the nice new booth (as seen in previous post) but this time it was epic fail OMG all the photos were super unglam how sad. And we were both having bad hair days.

Okay, so when we were done with the neoprints we sat down for drinks whilst waiting for the movie. And ended up ordering japanese pizza also. Yeah yea you have us for gluttons ;D

Lalala camwhoring is fun. Okay whatever.

Haha the bimbo shots(not screened) = FAIL. I am so not good at looking like a bimbo haha. So unglam lol

After that watched the movie, it was great, walked around cine a bit before heading to wisma where we window shopped some more but didn't buy anything (to my dismay). But at least we get to save whatever we can :D
I'm sooo sensible! Ahahahah LOL.

Mom and Dad picked us up from Wisma and went home for dinner. We stuck on new tattoos and played with make-up and listened to the radio and sang to the songs hahah and attempted to make a video of us singing. It was rather screwed but for the fun of it. After doing one eye (of make-up) dinner was ready so we stopped there and went to eat. Then we continued after dinner and camwhored. Blah blah blah.

Lips-stained cheeks (pink, silver, green)

sister's tattoo..

the camera can't really capture eyeshadow :)

Took two of three guitars outta my sis' room to action. Hahaz =)

kk gtg bai. Batu tomorrowz! :D

It's so heart-wrenching to know that you can't be with the ones you love anymore, due to certain unforeseen circumstances. I'm missing _______ and ________ and _________ so much.

This year has been like a very steep fall from last, its like when you had everything so good and suddenly it's all taken away from you with a snap. Sure, there were glorious moments this year but those desperate and desolate ones beat those of joy and elation hands down. Call me emo but it doesn't seem all that bad, but I'm not as joyful or happy as I was before. I'm still stuck in a state of confusion, trying to figure out what I'm feeling, what I want in life right now; but bits and pieces dash across my mind and I can't piece them together into one complete whole. I oftentimes feel disappointed in myself, and in the surroundings I am placed in. It is thus frustrating how nothing seems to work out for long enough. One day it's sunny and the weather is fine, and once your hopes are up, to your disappointment, life becomes mundane the next day and so on. Even if I do feel a sheer rush of happiness, which I do admit I have felt at times throughout this year, thank god, it is not long-lasting but a sudden spur of the moment whereby I count myself lucky for. It's so very indefinite and unstable, there's nothing I can base my life on, studies are unlike many of my peers, not my first priority, despite how I'm trying to change that attitude of mine. I just want to be happy and content. The secure feeling deep inside of me which probably did once exist. Knowing that despite whatever that might come my way, I'd still have something to fall on. But now it's so empty. It's not even an illusion.

I was looking back at my collection of the yearly class photos we'd taken from primary one to sec 1. And how I miss those times. (We were very cute come p1/2! :D) I might have hated and condemned in the past, but it sure beats the feelings of lostness drowning me right now. I look to God for answers or certain dashes of inspiration or luck which might spruce life up and get things going again, but so far all I've got is... nothing much. I know I should organize my life as things may get better from there onwards but yet I contemplated giving up since nothing is working. But I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP. Though I can only remain struggling to rise for as much as every ounce of breath I can manage.

What keeps me going are the people whom I love and who love me. They make me happy and keep me emotionally stable. Yet, everything has seemed to become so distant from me this year. It is no longer in my reach for me to grasp. I do not like sec 3 at all. I love 207 so much more, I wish we hadn't changed classes; every single one of the 207-ners I've talked too said that they still miss 207 and that they love 207 more than their current classes. I am too incapable of coping out of my comfort zone. And I don't give a damn anymore, I just want to be back in. Many are coping well I presume, some are not (I fully empathize), I'm fine on the bare minimum but on a deeper level, no.

I am so very upset. I wonder when everything will be happy and right again. Half a year later? Or two years later when I get to junior college and if I meet some nicer people whom I can actually connect with better? Or maybe things will never get better. Nevertheless, I shall continue to wait.

Well, maybe things aren't that bad after all. I mean I still do have my happy times. The problem is 1) something with my self which I'm trying to solve and settle asap

2) the distance I am from the people I like

I hope problem 1) gets solved very soon and problem 2) as well, except everybody's so busy nowadays but I will still try anyway.

I'm not emo anymore so ya don't have to be scared I'm not suicidal or anything.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go, can't do it alone

I've tried, and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment

I'm so scared but I don't show it

I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down

I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show

Updates and pictures coming up later!

♥ her royal juiciness.-

Tuesday, April 7, 2009
7:14 PM

Hey I'm back!

Haha hihi I am BACK :)

So now I'm temporarily abandoning xanga. (Though I've already done so; I've abandoned both blogs for quite some time now)

Been really busy the past 1/ 2 weeks, esp with my Barbie doll everyday! For those of you who don't know, no I'm not still playing with Barbie at this age, it's fashion cluster.

Anyway I will be uploading some looonng overdue photos from the outing which I'vent even the time to blog about:

27.03.09

Went out with the girl Lois. Caught up, reminicised a little, yakked about God remembers what. We hardly get to meet up nowadays (actually I hardly ever go out nowadays, sad) bcuz of our busy schedules. Hopefully things will be more free after SYF, although I doubt not, since there will still be a never-ending sea of PTs, SAs and whatever else after SYF and my June holiday's gonna be pretty packed I presume.

Basically here's what we did:
1) meet up
2) sushi tei for lunch where we felt the standard of the food's quality had dropped.
3) shop at juicy and zara, etc., at taka.
4) walked to wisma to shop more.
5) walked to cine to try to catch Hotel For Dogs but there wasn't any suitable time slot ):
6) got disappointed because the last time we watched a movie was a trillion years ago.
7) took neoprints at cine
8) had fruit juices at the food court (we were both damn thirsty after a long day)
9) she bought stuff from th korean shop (dodo club?) and my parents sent her home.

28.03.09
Happy fifteenth Nennyz! :D
Made a tiramisu for her and now I've accumulated a list of people to make tiramisu for on their birthdays! Lol I'm nice :)

I'm currently eating DIY sushi for dinner now. I don't have much of an appetite perhaps because of the chicken pie I devoured ever so quickly just two hours ago.
Lala. Have been listening to th radio a lot recently heheh.

Okay, so we took the Career Ed quiz today and the results I got was:
Producer-presenter

Haha. This is something like a radio or tv personality. LOL. But then again, I've never thought of being one, before. Other friends got results like doctor, kindergarten teacher, public relations officer (haha Loh) and political scientist?!

Today was such a busy day with so many things to rush I heave a sigh of relief now that most of them are settled.

In the morning, I had 1) mo xie to worry about
2) jian bao
3) fashion cluster outfit to finish

Thankfully, I managed to finish jian bao during ss (phew) and fashion cluster throughout lessons/ recess/ lunch and mo xie has been postponed to tomorrow. :)

Two less things to worry about now!

Had math clinic after school so I didn't go for most of angklung. It was somewhat similar to that of last year's. Hmmz.

Went for 30 min of ak. Talked and talked. Haha anyway prac was sort of done for the day. Then I waited for my mom in the foyer and talked to Shi Tian. And so I'm home, now. Sheez. I think I have a lot of hw to be done but I can't even remember what it is. Gtta check my diary planner later..

Anyway my mom's gna be really pissed if I continue wasting so much time on unnecessary things like blogging so till next time!

♥ her royal juiciness.-